Change is in the air. In northern Minnesota, the leaves are crisp and bright, and the earth is cool and sweet. The gardens have been turned, pulled up; harvest has been claimed and celebrated. Autumn is my absolute favorite time of year- though it is bittersweet.
Change is hard for me. It always has been. From the time I was a little girl, I remember throwing big fat tears when my dad would shave off his mustache. I remember sobbing and a sense of abandonment when we bought a new car and had to leave the old in a cold, dark parking lot. Where would that car go? What if it missed me? What about the glitter I had spilled in the back seat -it was so pretty to look at.
This has followed me into adulthood, though now I embrace it as a part of who I am. The fears and questions that surround Change have been altered, but the fear itself has not.
This summer, Change has hit our family and household in many forms. It is not a story of tragedy - rather one of choice. Choosing to make change is not any less scary. At ALL. :)
Choosing to make Change is however, freeing. It is liberating. And it is terrifying.
I have been afraid to share that change with my friends and family openly for fear of failure.
It is now my choice to share it here, with anyone who happens to stumble upon this blog. And yes, I am terrified. :)
This blog will be documenting my life, both photographically and personally. I hope you don't find it as terrifying as I do.
Have you had a recent change in your life? How are you dealing with it? What are the things that you do to keep you from wavering along your path?
Please share with me in your comments... for truly, we are all along this journey together.
With that, let the games begin!
Onward!
One last goodbye to summer:
Enjoy the change of the seasons. It brings good things.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
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Sarah, I love your new blog and how openly you express yourself, something I admire and aspire to do myself...one day more freely! Change...? So much has changed for me not by choice either, but it certainly has opened the door for me to pursue my love for photography. A leap of faith for sure. I'm looking forward to this journey and as long as I have people like you in my corner the journey will be so worth it! I am so grateful to have met you -- you are amazing as a person and in your photography! Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you wrote about change as a subject. I'm totally the same way when it comes to change... excited, terrified and yes, scared. I always feel like once I've gotten comfortable with life - something happens to throw me out of my comfort zone. I'm still learning to embrace change, but I think it will be a life long process before change and I become good friends. Whenever I'm feeling a little down about life and change, I like to read other people's quotes about it. One of my favorite quotes is from Gandhi, "Be the change you want to see in the world.” It's more empowering and kind of makes you think that you can make a change rather than just letting change only happen to you. Can't wait to read more posts!
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