Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Ahh... the joy of - Stress?!

I have been neglecting this blog.
I won't lie. I have opened this very page, to make my entry, and I am so drained by the end of the day that no words come. I am going to work on changing that. Promise. One of my goals for the next year is to better my photography business by A LOT, so this is a major player in all of that. Expect more positive posts from me in the future, k?

I am stressed out people. Like that really, paralyzing, all-encompassing kind of stressed out. Sometime soon I'll be able to share why, I suppose, but until then I prefer to keep it under wraps... you know. Sometimes, the tears come; at others, that heavy weight of confusion and powerlessness tugs at my shoulders.
I feel like I am at a pivotal point in my life, and that the decisions I make now will greatly effect many people's outcomes. Deep stuff, eh?

It's not all deep, I promise. I just wanted to share why I have been horribly neglectful of this blog. At this point, I totally feel guilty for wanting a photography business, for having dreams and goals, and for attempting to reach them.
Times like these make me thankful for that little voice in the back of my brain that whispers "what if, sarah" "you can do anything, sarah". These days that voice is getting stronger, if only by sheer will. I certainly have NO idea where it is gathering the energy!

I want to soar. I want to give. I want to love. I want to have faith.

Right at this moment, I want to cry.
But. I. Can't.

If you have an extra prayer for me right now, I would so return the favor.


  1. Well, you do beautiful work Sarah, so that little voice is right on target. ;) Thinking of you and hoping you come through whatever challenges you're facing soon. What's the saying?! Something about how we wouldn't know the sunshine, if it weren't for the darkness. =) Eh, I butchered it, but something like that.

  2. xoxoxoxox prayers and good thoughts your way. love ya!

  3. A sure fire way to kill a passion is to ignore those little voices. You are a beautiful artist/photographer, Sarah. I love looking at your work. It's so beautiful. I believe there is a time & place for those what if's...this could just maybe be your time. :-)